What's The Story, Morning Glory?!

I'm officially moved!

2005-11-02T09:31:00.000-05:00

I moved my blog....to visit me go here:
http://blog.myspace.com/storymorningglory

Red eye

2005-10-31T11:21:00.000-05:00

Ok, I take it back, I don't have pink eye, Im pretty sure it should be called red eye! (attractive thought, ehh?!! LOL!) I've been up since 3 a.m. and I feel pretty miserable. I can only half open my eyes, but I've still been PSP'n and out blogg'in around! Can't leave the internet for a day! I get withdrawals just thinking about it! =)
I called the doctor, he'll see me tomorrow since my Red eye isn't responding to antibiotics! Ugh! It's always something anymore!
So, the cable guy comes to fix my internet connection. For the past 3 weeks,it goes down without warning. First thing he says Isn't "hello, Im the cable guy", no it was "what's wrong with your eyes", rofl! Geesh, give me a complex will ya! ha ha!
The kids are going trick or treating tonight again. They will have fun. I pre-ordered the Post secret's book, I can't wait for it to be released and actually arrive!
Happy Halloween everyone!

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A nice couple of days!

2005-10-29T11:39:00.000-04:00

I had a really nice couple of days! Thursday I volunteered at Ciera's fall festival (her class) and it was a good time. Kindergardeners are just awesome, they are so full of love and excitement! I also had to run to pay bills and get groceries.
Then it was trick-or-treating later on!
Friday the girls had no school so we went up to Erie shopping. A nice girl's afternoon out! I bought them thier winter jackets and also a couple of outfits & a pair of pajama's.
This morning I woke up with massive pink eye, what's up with that?! LOL!
I was working on some graphics (cute turtles) and a webset for inside my members area, and I had to pixel one-eye'd! rofl!
I am hoping the tummy ulcer is healing now. The biopsy came back negative, so it wasn't being cuased by bacteria, they told me to try Prilosec. (I suffered for 5 months, lost 45 lbs and only need an OTC medicine?! Ugh!) Anyhow I was able to eat a very plain sub from subway yesterday! I can't tell you how good things taste when you haven't eaten in 5 months! =)
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! Hugs, Amy

currently listening to.... Third eye blind
and reading..... Good Grief by Lolly Winston

The Pool

2005-10-25T11:19:00.000-04:00

My topic today is the pool of self created misery!
Ever know someone who seems to want to drown in it?!!
Unfortunatley I've encountered this here and there throughout life.
You know them, the friendships you'd like to keep, but they just seem to bring you down a notch ...fairly often? Almost as if they find enjoyment in it?
I just can't do it anymore.
So I weeded them out. I have one who seems to want to creep back in once in awhile. For years I thought I could just keep the friendship. Things would work out. Maybe the problem was Me. "I'll just fix me and we'll all get along."
Well, I'm tired of fixing me. And the problem was still there!
Whether they are aware of it or it is subconscience, they seem to prey on your every weakness. Make you second guess yourself. They seem to make your steps a little bit more insecure in life.
Anyhow this whole thought process stems from an encounter I had over the weekend from a creeper. (One of those people who thinks you might be overjoyed to hear from them once in a blue moon.) I'm disgusted today & have a heavy heart. I spend part of the day wondering how I would tell them in a kind way that I can't allow it to go on anymore. I don't like to hurt peoples feelings.
I don't like fueds or anything nasty, I'd prefer to sugar coat things! Just as I thought I would sugar coat it and just do it, I realized they had blocked my IP Address and I could no longer email them. Isn't this crazy?!!
It went down in flames without me even realizing it at first, and it's all good. I'm moving on with my life and for future reference will surround myself with people who can treat me with the same respect and common courtesy I give them.

Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty, well preserved body, but rather to skid in side-ways, thoroughly used up, totally worn out & loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a ride!"

To my girls,

2005-10-24T08:24:00.000-04:00

Where did the time go?! You are already about to be 6 & 11. I can remember bringing you home from the hospitol and being so delighted with this beautiful little being! I thought the days where I'd send you off to school or the pre-puberty days would never approach us (not that I was in a rush for them to) They just seemed so very far away. I was content with you both just staying tiny!
Now the days have come where I'm sending you off to kindergarden and 5th grade. Unbelieveable! Tooth fairies have started to come for you, my youngest!
You are learning to read books already....
and my oldest, you are blossoming into such a wonderful, young lady. I can't believe we are starting to deal with acne & shaving your legs! (Oh those parental milestones!)
It's been a complete joy to watch you both grow up and blossom into such great young ladies. You are both so passionate about life, so eager to help others, and kind & caring. What more can the world ask for?!
I just needed to tell you how proud I am of you both!

A daughter is a wonderful blessing, A treasure from above. She's laughter, warmth and special charm, She's thoughtfulness and love. A daughter brings a special joy, That comes from deep inside. And as she grows to adulthood, She fills your heart with pride.With every year that passes, She's more special than before. Through every stage, through every age,You love her even more.No words can describe the warm memories, The pride and gratitude, too. That comes from having a daughter, To love and to cherish... just like you

post a secret

2005-10-22T08:52:00.000-04:00

I came accrossed this web site and was enthrolled! I think its actually pretty cool, and the artwork people come up with is neat, too. I think more people have secrets than they let on to others.....with that being said, check it out for yourself! I'm actually thinking I want to buy the book!
http://postsecret.blogspot.com/
Yeah, the other book I want to read (my daughter requested it for Christmas) is Ripleys believe it or not hardcover, call me morbid, but I think it's pretty cool, too!

Amy needs

2005-10-21T12:08:00.000-04:00

Ohh, I soo had to try this (I found it at Johanna's blog, and it really made me chuckle! So give it a try! Google your first name with the word "Needs" & write down the first 10 results!
1. Amy knits (ummm, not my idea of a favorite pastime)
2.Amy needs a drug-dealer's testimony (ummm, no thanx!)
3.Amy needs a home (I'd take one anyday!)
4.Amy needs your prayers (yeah, I do actually!)
5.Amy Needs Help!!! (Nahh, you don't say!)
6.Amy! Wanna go to Tibet with me (no way!)
7.Amy needs to examine her motives (my motives are just fine!)
8.Amy needs to see the seventh grade ...(Don't make me go back there!)
9.Amy needs people to practice on (OMG! LMAO! Wanna volunteer?!)
10. Amy Needs sex (Brian....where are you?!!! LOL!)

my results

2005-10-19T16:54:00.000-04:00

My results from the scope...I have a small ulcer. I'm not sure how they will treat it, so far he wants me to stay on the same antibiotic and call him back in 7-10 days after he has the results form the biopsy. Also I have the delayed gastric emptying which can be causing problems, too.

the scope

2005-10-19T07:25:00.000-04:00

Today is the day of the dreaded scope! Wish me luck!

going to school...what it means to me!

2005-10-17T10:39:00.000-04:00

My children going to school.....catch every naff'in germ that floats down the hallways. My oldest is missing her 2nd day here due to a stomach flu. It's very frustrating to me. While school is in session, we are ill about every two weeks. Ugh! I'm not well this afternoon, I think I may be coming down with it, go figure!

The lets discuss the homework, I do believe in another year or two she will bypass my entire education, LOL! Her homework has gotten very difficult for a 5th grader. My kindergardener is learning to read already, memorizing sight words and knows how many syllables different words contain already! In a sense, it's a great thing! But in another, its a tad bit frightening to the average intelligence....I'l have to learn trig to help her with 7th grade homework soon (rofl!)

My youngest is still enjoying kindergarden! It's exciting to watch them grow up and blossom to wonderful young people!

My oldest has a TSS worker now and a mobile therapist to help her reduce anxiety (a nervous bug like her mommy) and these ladies are truely wonderful! They are very kind!

I have a scope Wednesday....please say some prayers for me! I'm very nervous about it. I hope they don't mess anything up while there check'in out my tummy b/c I don't want to wake up any worse then I already am. I'm also scared what if they don't figure out the cause of my tummy upset?! I've been through a scope a few years back and they didn't find the reason for the upset. They just said it looked very irritated back then. Luckily my tummy settled back down on it's own back then, but that isn't the case now. I've been ill since June when they took my gallbladder out. I hope they can figure it out while they are in there!

I better run along for now, but hope everyone has a great week!

It's been a few

2005-10-16T07:30:00.000-04:00

It's been a few days huh?! I better get with the program, LOL! I'm doing okay. My tummy has been funny off and on, but what else is new. I should be used to it by now! No big plans today, except dh is coming home from playing army (he was away over the weekend) YAYY! I can't wait to see him! It was only a couple of days, but we miss him greatly when he isn't around!
We went to Octoberfest yesterday. I really enjoyed looking at all the crafts! People come up with such neat idea's! The girls rode the rides and enjoyed different foods. Haley had a tummy ache later on that day. (She is just like mommy =( Greasy foods make her very ill).
Today its just off to the laundry mat and to a birthday party. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

In my write mind

2005-10-06T13:28:00.000-04:00

Am I in my write mind today?!! I'm so bored it's insane!

I am still feeling well and off anti-nausea meds, what a wonderful blessing! I hope this is what the future holds for me (wellness!)
Now that I have improved tummy wise, I'm bored off my mind!!!
Both kids are in school now, as long as I keep feeling this well, I will be going back to work! I'm ready to!

Ohhh, I had to come back to show off this awesome siggy a friend, Nadine, made for me.......Doesn't it rock?!!

60 things

2005-10-05T13:23:00.000-04:00

1.I'm blonde, literally. Hey, it entertains my friends. I never cease to amuse them with my airheaded-ness SOME days.
2. But I can be quite intelligent, too
3. I use common sense, most days!
4. I'm addicted to graphics & Paint shop pro
5. the proof is here: http://mypixelpatch.com
6. I've been thru an Iraq deployment with my husband being away for over a year.
7. I didn't handle it well, I allowed the grief to consume me.
8. which lead to a crystal meth addiction, but I got myself clean. It can be done!
9. I've been clean for 2 years now.
10.I learned I will require more of myself, if there is a next time.
11. I learn from my mistakes.
12. But also learned very humbly that I am human.
13. I've taught myself a lot on the pc. I didn't know how to turn one on 5 years ago, now I run my own graphics site!
14. I cherish my close friends.
15. I have learned the difference of who is a friend.
16. I have learned life will try to harden you
17. but I won't allow it.
18. I cherish my husband. He's a wonderful partner, lover, friend, and father!
19. I believe in God.
20. I struggle with tummy problems.
21. That haven't been diagnosed completely yet.
22. I'll always be a survivor and not a victim
23. The glass is half full!
24. I am close to my parents.
25. I have two girls ages 5 & 10.
26. I had my oldest child at 19.
27. I don't understand football! LOL!
28. I strive to be a good wife & mother!
29. I love to go for walks.
30. I want a dog, preferrably a lab. I've had many animals ranging from a boa, to a chameleon, bearded dragons, cats, bunnies, you name it!
31. I believe there is a reason why things happen
32. even though sometimes its difficult to understand
33. I refuse to buy a house. I'd rather rent.
34. I sometimes get frustrated with the Army life, but wouldn't choose it any other way.
35. My health took a downward spiral this summer. I've had two surgeries and battle wounds to show for it.
36. I'm impulsive.
37. and laid back.
38. I love a sense of humor!
39. but I'm also a quiet person.
40. I'm 5'5
41. medium build
42. I love quotes and proverbs
43. I like to read
44. but hate love stories and anything fake like that
45. it includes soap opera's, ugh!
46. I'm a reality tv buff (ironic, huh?!)
47. The best diet I ever tried was called deployment
48. Have I mentioned I love my husband?! He is my entire life, I live for him & love doing so!
49. He inspires me
50. I LOVE music. Usually alternative!
51.I do not like ill mannered people! or fake people!
52. I'm an open book
53. with a lot of mystery
54. I'm a girlie girl but would love to mud wrestle!
55. I believe being an involved parent is a high priority
56. I believe one person CAN make a difference!
57. I'm a very nervous person, but try hard to hide it
58. I have three box turtles for pets! They are neat critters!
59. I also have two painted turned (red sliders) in an aquarium full of fish
60. I'd love to meet Sylvia Brown & Jay Leno!

My Bloginality

2005-10-05T06:47:00.000-04:00

My Bloginality is ENFP!!!
As an ENFP, you are Extraverted, intuative, Feeling , Perceiving.This makes your primary focus on Extraverted Intuition with Introverted Feeling.
This is defined as a NF personality, which is part of Carl Jung's Idealist (Identity Seeking) type, and more specifically the Champions or Inspirer.
As a weblogger, you may not be consistant in posts. Although, if you find a specific focus on their journal or a very flexible manner of writing, it may be more fufilling. Because you are warm and see so many posibilities in life, you may inspire others to follow in your footsteps with a journal.

I thought I would do something different today, go out blogg'in! So I did, and I found some really interesting ones...but I soon discovered...you have to create an account with each different place just to post a comment, or you aren't a "Team member" so you can't post a Hello! How frustrating! I decided I had enough and skipped it. Why do they make it so complicated just to post a friendly lil note! I even created an account at one place (my space, I believe it was) went through all that trouble, went to post a comment and the comment box kept coming up as page can't be displayed! Grrr.

So far , so good today tummy wise, too! YAYY! I don't feel 100%-let's-eat-a-meal per-say...but I have not had to take anti nausea meds in the past 24 hours, thats an accomplishment for my current health status! YAY! I hope I am getting better and I hope I return to a normal healthy state of being able to eat again and feel healthy w/o tummy aches!

3 weeks w/o a cigarette.....WooHoo! I'm doing okay with it, too.

YAYYYY!!!!!!!!! Happy Dance

2005-10-04T17:57:00.000-04:00

For the first time in over 4 months........it's 6 pm and I have not required any anti nausea meds today! YAYYY!!!!!!!!!!! I hope I am now starting to walk up hill with this battle and getting better....say a prayer for me!!!

I have to post about this journal I came accrossed today....and I was engrossed in it....then when my husband came home from work he read it as well. She has lost her husband. He was deployed to Iraq.
I can't help but to keep going back and reading it, I've also e-mailed her and posted a message. Maybe if you have a moment, leave her a kind, caring message. It isn't much, but it might help to know others care!!!

I went through a deployment to Iraq also. My husband was deployed (he came home safely a year and a half ago thank goodness!) So I guess I feel connected to her fear's and now they have came true, and I feel so bad for her. I have been thinking all afternoon what I could do to help her and her family. It is such a shame, the whole world has lost a hero!

Many hero's were lost during this war. I don't know if I agree with the war or not. I supported my husband 110% while he was serving his country, its hard to say I dont agree with it b/c what are we all fighting for if not?!
If we don't agree where all these lives in vain?! But also I know the icky side to it all....and I don't want my husband to have to go back again.
I guess that is a bridge I will have to cross if it presents itself to us.

To all the men and women in uniform....and all the husbands/wives/parents/ siblings that stand beside them....
Thank You!

I went into the humane society with my ten year old today and volunteered with her today. It was a good time! We walked the dogs, she really has been wanting to, but the dogs drag her all of 60 lb body, LOL!
We took one fo r awalk today. He was a bit rambunctious BUT I also understand he was just so elated to get out of his cage! I so believe in the humane society's, both of our cats came from there, and they are the best we've ever owned!!! It seems when they come from being unwanted, they are just soo appreciative of having a good home! I love animals, maybe because I relate so much better to them than to people. (Thats a whole other story though) ROFL!
We also spent time with the kitties, letting them out of thier cages, petting them, gave them treats, ect. I think this is a perfect job for my daughter right now! She loves it! She has the job until the end of May.

Okay, I'm leaving you with a favorite poem:
(It is framed with a picture of my husband on my living room wall. It was presented to him when he came home from Iraq in a ceremony at his unit)

Freedom's Call

They are called to be in uniform
To serve both day & night
Protecting our great country
To fight the valiant fight.

To rescue us form danger
At home- accross the sea
Brave & Special people
Who keep our nation free

And together on a mission
Our hero's, they are there
Every color- every creed
With freedom's light to share

And day by day- step by step
All for one & one for all
Our hero'sstand together strong
To answer freedom's call

P.s.- I forgot to mention that I haven't had a cigarette in close to 3 weeks!

What a huge blessing!

2005-10-04T12:17:00.000-04:00

It is noon here and I have required no anti-nausea medicine today! YAYY!
This has been a wonderful morning, the first time in 4 months that I have felt human again! I hope this continues and I keep getting better and better!
Yesterday I volunteered for my daughters kindergarden class, reading to all 4 classes in the library as mystery reader. It was a lot of fun, the kids enjoyed it! I read "If you take a mouse to school" to them, all while wearing a cape and a feathered mask! Ciera knew who I was right away tho, she told her teacher "Its my mom! My mom always wears her hair in a pony tail" LOL!
Please keep me in thoughts and prayers that I am finally starting to get better!

Night creature

2005-10-03T11:36:00.000-04:00

Your a werewolf which is cool cuz' you can
shapeshift.people treat you like the predator
you are and stay away from you.You love the
moon and never turn down a good hunt.You can
control the change when you want.
Your saying:I'm dark like the night but beatiful
like the moon.

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I can't wait

2005-09-27T08:50:00.000-04:00

until I get better!!! I can't wait until my blog is no longer about my health! I was in the emergency room twice in the past week for impactions. This was a new doctor i saw yesterday and he wanted me to pick up the supplement acidphillus (to treat too much yeast in the intestines) he also think I am IBS, a slow digestive tract which I already knew, and wheat allergies can be making me ill. I don't know if he is right on or not but I am willing to try just about anythign to get better, Im desperate! I'm tired of these HORRIBLE all day long ER visits, too. My hubby tries to make light of it and teases me "Are we partying with the ER crew tonight?!!" LMAO! =)
Today I have to go for the gastric emptying test again (I already had it a few years back and I am slow) but they want a new one to see where I am at now with it. I have to eat eggs and lie there for 90 minutes to see if my tummy half empties out like a normal human. Gosh, I sooo don't think eggs are going to go over well! It may not empty in the way that they plan. I hope so I have open house tonight to go to at the kiddo's school. Wish me luck! I hope today ends up suprizing me and being a good day!
Which all led to my thinking last night, when our pets get real ill, we have the option to humanley put them down.....why don't we humans have this kind of thing as well?!! Instead we suffer til the very end, stinks huh?!! I get depressed but i refuse to lose faith. I know God has not forgotten about me! I refuse to think otherwise. Faith, hope, & the unwavering love of my family keeps me going.

my 2nd home has

2005-09-22T09:21:00.000-04:00

become the emergency room unfortunalty. I was there again last night and it was nothing short of government torture. I never want to go through such an unpleasant thing again! I hope they find the cause of my belly problems soon! I just want to be a normal person again! To have good days without the help of anti-nausea meds! The silver lining to it all though, its the only thing I have to hold on to besides my faith in God, I'm now down 3 pants sizes since I became sick.

Hoo Hummm!

2005-09-17T12:26:00.000-04:00

Today I am really in an awful mood, who knows why! I seem to have two mood to me....really happy & every once in awhile, really grumpy! I'm cranky b/c I don't feel well in the 1st place with no help from any of these doctors/ specialists I have seen so far. They have not been able to figure out why I continue to be this way with my stomach. I almost want to be angry at God for all of this, too but in fact I know with my faith, the prayers will be answered in thier own time, with his will. It's hard not to get frustrated though. My family is less than happy with my condition at this moment. I understand they are equally as frustrated as I am with my condition, my doctors, ect. but I take the brunt of it often enough and you know what?!! I can't do a damn thing to control it besides not eating (which I already live on a liquid Boost diet anyhow) Geez, you know, if I had that emergency shut off button for the damn nausea and vomiting, don't you think I wouldnt have pulled the cord long ago?! I still have to function like a normal person...I still cook and clean, ect.
I'm tired of hearing how it has affected thier life, why dont they wake up day in and day out like this. Ummm, I deal with it, thanx!
Can you tell I am a tad grumpy?! Sorry!
I haven't spend much time updating my blog this week....as I have been away from home with appointments everyday and all that jazz. Plus some things are just not appropriate to be penned down here.
I hope you all have a great week!

My Day Yesterday

2005-09-14T08:22:00.000-04:00

I saw a digestive disease specialist in Erie. He thought maybe its a combo fo acid reflux and delayed gastric emptying that is making me this ill, so he put me on zegerid powder , reglan, and phenogren until I can keep stuff down on my own, but zegerid didn't do the magic trick so I have to clal him back. He is doing a scope on me Oct 19th to see if he can locate the problem then.
I have a job interview today. It's a weekend job and i really wanted it for the extra money, but my tummy isn't co-operating with me any! =(
I changed my website around, gave it a new look! Check it out if you have a minute:
http://mypixelpatch.com
and I still have the lifetime membership/ autumn sale going on if you'd like to join!
Hugs, Amy

Some people have huge hearts!

2005-09-12T10:12:00.000-04:00

YAYYY! I called the digestive disease place in Erie that so many people have recommended to me recently. They said the doctors there are awesome but it takes a long time to get in to see a doctor there. Well, I called this morning explained to the lady that I have been ill since June and can't eat and she got me in right away, I go tomorrow afternoon. I hope and pray these people will be able to figure out how to successfully treat me, and God will give them the knowledge they need to end this suffering! Wish me luck!

Just a lil note!

2005-09-11T14:20:00.000-04:00

There is a sale going on at my site: http://mypixelpatch.com
Lifetime Memberships are 1/2 price 20.00

I added some cross stitch patterns & printables this weekend.

I'm not feeling well. The nausea and vomiting returned with a vegence
two days after surgery. We haonestly haven't figured out the cause yet, I have had so many tests, and the only thing that shows is that I have a slow gastric emptying and a gallbladder that needed out (did that already).
I pray that God will heal my tummy!

2005-09-10T09:51:00.000-04:00

What a night, sick again. SO much for the nausea being cured, LOL! I'm so frustrated anymore with everything! They can't seem to find the cause or cure my constant nausea nd vomiting, what a way to live! But then also it affects our budget, with me needing constant medication, and now Brian being very ill. He has pharyngitis, strep throat and a sinus infection that is proving to be resistant to most medications. He was back at the doctor yesterday (charged again for the visit which I think should have been a follow up appt.) BUT he is now on his 3rd antiobiotic to try to get better, I have spent about 65.00 just this week on medications alone and I wonder why no extra bills can get paid. I still have two prescriptions waiting to be picked up at the pharmacy. So I sit down to write out my budget for this week and I am equally as frustrated with it. I think after all is said and done, I have a total of 100.00 left and that is supposed to be for gasoline for him to get to work, patches since he quit chewing, ohh and groceries too. Ugh! Anyone else getting this frustrated in life? Brian has a good job, there is no reason why we should be struggling this much.
On top of all the other worries, he can't be missing much more work. He normally has a good amount built up, but with me being as sick as I am/ was this summer, we drained them trying to get me better and all my surgeries adn crap.
I got up and drank a boost this morning. I am hoping the nausea is better today than last night, but i can't tell ya. UGH! UGH! UGH! Sometimes life sucks!

What timing!

2005-09-09T07:18:00.000-04:00

I think the doc did the trick, since surgery I have been able to eat for the 1st time in over 90 days without having to suffer unpleasant consequences! LOL! I swear when I see the doc again I will kiss her feet (have I ever mentioned that I hate feet?! That's a whole new post tho! LMAO!)
Timing sucks, ever notice that in life?!! I have my 2nd surgery this summer and Brian gets sick the day I have surgery.(not that I blame him) He has strep throat and a sinus infection. He looks pale and miserable. He is weak and tired. so a day after surgery guess who was driving the kids to school , doing neccessity housework, runing after the children. I was fuming mad last night and it wasn't a pretty evening around here! I was in untoklerable pain by last night as I wont chance a pain pill, afraid it may upset my tummy and the nausea and vomiting will return.

2005-09-07T18:10:00.000-04:00

Surgery day went well thus far!
I do have endometriosis after all. They also removed a cyst on my ovary & removed scar tissue from having my gallbladder out a few months ago. I am praying this ends the nausea for me, b/c I am very frustrated at living this way. I ate for the first tiem in months tonight and had peanut butter andjely sandwhiches. I was in my glory and so far I am not ill! Say a prayer for me! Thanks!

2005-09-05T18:32:00.000-04:00

Howdy everyone! Hope you all had a good weekend!
We had a busy, busy one! Took the girls to Wildameer park Saturday with my parents. Admission was buy one combo pass get one for a buck and they had a blast! Sunday it was off to visit Brian's grandma. That's always a nice time! We had a small picnic. Then last night we decided to re-do the girls' bedroom a bit, so we ordered new curtains for them, built a desk and student chair for them, and they also have a moon chair in there now. Brian was in a project mood today so he organized and rearranged the living room, dining room, and closets...holy cow! I don't have he energy to keep up with him anymore! He says we don't spring clean, we fall clean, rofl!
One more day until surgery........I'm VERY nervous! I just want to have it over with adn hope she can locate a problem, b/c frankly I am very tired of being so nauseas all the time! (and that is w/o eating! UGH!)

2005-08-31T10:48:00.000-04:00

Pics to share! Today was the 1st day of 5th grade for my oldest and 1st day of kindergarden for my youngest! I'm sooo proud of them so I thought I would share a few pics!
I have surgery scheduled for next week, please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. It's exploritory , so hopefully she can locate my problem so I may recover and get on with this chapter of my life!
Big hugs! Amy

2005-08-29T10:08:00.000-04:00

Well, it's resume time! LOL! Time for me to head back to work part time since my kids will all be in school. I'm really nervous about it truthfully, but excited as well! I used ot be a cna, but lost my license due to choosing to be a stay at hoem mom. (You have to work the floors so many hours in order to keep the license and I didn't do it since I was home). My friend Barb I use dot workk with wants to get me in her job, it pays 11.00 an hour, so I am so exicted about it, and it sounds perfect for me. It's so hard to make up the resume years later though! I thoroughly enjoyed being home with the kids but now it's like what do you write on the resume?!! I folded 11,000 pairs of socks, refereed 5,000 arguements, cooked 100,00 dinners?! LMAO! or maybe i have the dinner # and the arguement # mixed up a bit, lmao!
Wish me luck!

2005-08-26T17:10:00.000-04:00

Today has been one of those days! I took Ciera to orientation at school for Kindergarden. She did so well, she chimed right in with her classmates and with her teacher, but I am soo sad to see her growing up! Took Haley ot her Dr's Appt. he did reduce her adderall, now the fun begins! LOL! But, if it helps her socially, then I'll deal with it. I've always wanted what was best for the kiddo's, whether it makes life harder for me or not.
The kids' behavior has been horrendous lately. Esp. the past two days. They are bouncing off the walls for no reason, I suspect it has something to do with them going to school soon and summer winding down, but in reality I'm plain tired of speaking to them, yelling and disciplining! It wears on one's nerves very quickly.
Let's put the icing on the cake, my husband and I are fighting this evening, yeah....the blissful silence in here is real nice. Ugh! (Can you hear my sarcasm from over there?!!!) I'd like more help with disciplining them, in turn he says I am a crab for the past 3 months since i had my gallbladder removed. Hmm, maybe it is the stress here, maybe its the fact that I am nauseous constantly,
I don't know, but I am crabby and disgusted with life anymore. Ever since he returned form Iraq he says thing swhen we fight that are very hurtful....I'm just tired of fighting with everyone! What a friggin day!
Haley had ot have x-rays on her ankle. It's an old injury that keeps causing her pain off and on.
Okay, I've bored you enough this evening! Have a good weekend!

2005-08-25T14:12:00.000-04:00

Dear Lord,

So far today, I'm doing all right.

I have not gossiped, lost my temper, been greedy,

grumpy, nasty, selfish, or self-indulgent.

I have not whined, complained, cursed or eaten any chocolate.

I have charged nothing on my credit card.

But I will be getting out of bed in a minute....

and I think I will really need your help then!

2005-08-25T09:34:00.000-04:00

Want to share a favorite song of yours?!!

These are mine at the current moment!

Switchfoot "More than fine"

When I wake in the morning,I want to blow into pieces.I want more than just ok, more than just ok.When I'm up with the sunriseI want more than just blue skies.I want more than just ok, more than just ok.I'm not giving up, giving up, not giving up now.I'm not giving up, giving up, not backing down.More than fine, more than bent on getting by.More than fine, more than just ok.When I'm wet with the sunshine.I want more than just a good time.I want more than just ok, more than just ok.I'm not giving up, giving up, not giving up now.I'm not giving up, giving up, not selling out.More than fine, more than bent on getting by.More than fine, more than just ok.More than fine, more than bent on getting by.More than fine, more than just ok.More than oceans away from the dawn.More than oceans away from the dawn.More than oceans away from who we areMore than oceans, more than oceans, yeah.More than fine, more than bent on getting by.More than fine, more than just ok.More than fine, more than bent on getting by.More than fine, more than just ok.

Switchfoot "Meant to Live"
Fumbling his confidenceAnd wond'ring why the world has passed him byHoping that he's meant for more than argumentsAnd failed attempts to fly, flyWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?Somewhere we live insideSomewhere we live insideWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?Somewhere we live insideDreaming about ProvidenceAnd whether mice or men have second triesMaybe we've been livin with our eyes half openMaybe we're bent and broken, brokenWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?Somewhere we live insideSomewhere we live insideWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?Somewhere we live insideWe want more than this world's got to offerWe want more than this world's got to offerWe want more than the wars of our fathersAnd everything inside screams for second lifeWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?We were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?We were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?We were meant to liveWe were meant to live

And last but not least:
Seether "Out of my way"
Out of my wayOut of my, way[Pre-Chorus]I can’t pass up this opportunity to make myself absurd,I can’t pass up this opportunity to let myself be heard.Would you, like to, be the one who sees me lose this all,Would you, like to, be the one who sees me fall.[Chorus]Nobody’s gonna stand in my wayGive it up son, I’m doin’ this my wayNobody’s gonna stand in my wayGive it up son, I’m doin’ this my wayYou like to think the worst is over now, but you cant breathe at all. You like to think you’re owed a favor now, man you’ve seen it allDid you, want to, be the one who pushed me off the wall,Did you, want to, be the one who let me fall.[Chorus]You can’t hold me down..You can’t hold me down..You can’t hold me down..You can’t hold me down..[Pre-Chorus][Chorus]Nobody’s gonna stand in my wayGive it up, I’m doin’ this my wayNobody’s gonna stand in my way Give it up, I’m doin’ this my way Out of my way

2005-08-24T08:30:00.000-04:00

Hello! I'm not feeling all that positive today.....I became very ill last night again. I was up late working on my website. I wanted to change it over to fall colors (Autumn is my favorite season!) And I bough tth ecutest webset from Angela's Doodle Pad, by late last night I was feeling really hungry so I drank a boost nutritional supplement & i became very ill afterwards. I can't figure out my body! Why is it that my body can't even tell me what it needs....it thought it was hungry, LOL! I get very down some days, esp. the hard days! How can one go through life constantly vomiting and the doctors can't find the cause of it?! I've been through about every test you can think of, every procedure, and there is nothing that shows (except the fact that I do digest slowly meaning my tummy doesnt 1/2 empty out during the disgestion procedure in the 1st 90 minutes and that my gallbladder only functioend at 12% which was removed) Other than those two things, tests make me look like a healthy functionaing adult. Ugh!
Anyhow if you have a minute (please excuse the dust) check otu ym site nad let me know what you think! http://mypixelpatch.com
Hugs, Amy

2005-08-23T15:11:00.000-04:00

Do you ever have a difficult time coming up with a name for your blog?!!
Or how about things to write about?!!

I considered today like a few names for my blog (since most I wanted where taken, I had to get a tad creative) I thought about
Does this blog make my butt look big?! How did you choose your creative name?! I sat here like this was a crusical life decision...what to name my blog?!! LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-23T14:38:00.000-04:00

Scheduling Surgery...
Doc called this morning and is ready to go ahead and schedule me early for surgery (laproscopic) to check for endometriosis. Gosh, if this isn't causing the constant nausea, and she is not able to find the answers, then I guess I'm just afreak that is nauseated and throws up all too often. Not quite the way I imagined my life at 29! The other doctors and also a internal specialist has not been able to help me yet.
To catch any newcomes up to speed, I got real sick about 3 months ago adn had emergency gallbladder surgery on a Sunday (it was only functioning at 12%) but I cam eout of surgery not getting any better yet!
Geesh, bikini days are going to be sooo over for me! Even if I lost the other 25 lbs I need to lose, my tummy is full of battle wounds, LOL!

2005-08-23T14:13:00.000-04:00

Whatta Day!
1st of all, after three months I finally stopped throwing up with the aid of a specialist. He put me on Reglan to help my digestion speed up and also on aciphex which makes me queasy but I am still taking it since he told me to. I called him today which he asked me to do, and told him I was so much better thanks to the Reglan (b/c I get very queasy after taking the aciphex and he says Good! Stop taking the Reglan "I'm thinking ... Did I just hear him right?!! Yup, it's was used as an anti-nausea and now I must go off of it, so chances are my head will meet the potty again very soon. Am I P*ssed?!! YES! I have lived this way long dam* enough! I want a dam* answer and a dam* way to maintain so I am not always sick! An answer would be nice! I've had test after test adn no kown reason why I puke all the time. But I have 1400.00 dentist bills every two years as proof that Im alwasy sick besides the fact that I have involuntarily lost 40 lbs in 3 months!So I quit smoking for 30 days, today I walked my ass up to the gas station and bought before I had a nervous breakdown. Reglan causes increased anxiety and irritability (common side effect) like I need any more anxiety in my life!Tomorrow holds what tomorrow holds, we'll see when I get out of bed as to whether I will quit again tomorrow or keep lighting up.I've been stressed over Haley also. She is seeing a counselor for anxiety as well. Kids are plain mean these days, I think worse then I was a kid, but I can see why with this world the way it is sometimes.I also know a big cause of her anxiety is also adderal xr used to treat her ADHD. Off of it, she is hyper, manipulative, cannot focus,no attention span. On adderall she is quiet, nervous, but very responsible.Most people say "I didn't know she had ADHD , thats b/c she is on the medicine! Duh!!!Anyhow, the cousleor wants her treated for anxiety. I agree, BUT I do not agree with the fact of using another narcotic or an antidepressant.The narcotic for obvous reasons, the antidepressant b/c off all the reports I have seen about it causing increased agitation, irritability, andhostility in children.So, I am asking the Dr. to reduce her adderall to 5 mg to see if that helps. I'm sure it will, but LORD HELP ME trying to keep up with the behavior modification! We'll see how it goes! I hope the doc will see my point in all of this!On top of this....Bills, do I need to say more?!! This is the "bad" time of the year for us...(budget wise) Ciera's eye glasses (no insurance for vision),christmas around the corner and halloween, school pics, fundraisers, my birthday, a michigan game that I need money to send him with, dental bills( again no ins. coverage) ect.And I love MILITARY (RESERVE) PAYS BEING CHRONICALLY LATE!Gotta love the military life, I'm sure other military wives are shaking thier heads in agreement! Need I say more there?!! LOL!With all of this sitting on me, I'm so anxious & sad sometimes.Anyone else ever feel this way?!!

2005-08-23T13:31:00.000-04:00

Meet my newest addition!
Meet Max, our new kitty!
I took my ten year old in to sign up to volunteer at the humane society this year
and out we come with a new kitten, I know....forehead has sucker written all over it huh?!!
LOL!
Like I needed another animal, he he!
We have a cat named Echo, now Max, a bunny named Izabelle,
three box turtles & also 2 painted red sliders in an aquarium full of fish,
oh and can't forget about the green ribbon garter snake we have either or the two tree frogs, crazy huh?!!
=)
We have had in the past before a chameleon, a boa,
a bearded dragon , ect
My hubby says we should just charge admission to my petting zoo, LMAO!